it was for real and worth it

where did you go.. i miss your words and the excitement that came along with them. i miss the advice even when i didnt ask for it. i miss the compliments and the way they made me blush. does it ever stay the same? is it every really worth all the trouble? we dont even talk anymore.. did we run out of words to say? you were the one thing i looked forward to. the one thing that actually gave me hope for the future. and now its gone and it just restores thoughts i used to have. thats why i dont put my trust in things people say. i took everything with a grain of salt. after so many years.. i loved the person you thought i'd become and your dreams for what wed become. but now its gone.. dreams washed in a sink full of bleach. leaving no clues of their presence.. to the naked eye.. they never even exsisted. but to us.. we knew it was real for whats its worth.