there was once a boy who came into my life so undetected but left like a tornado that took no vengence for anything that was in its path. but the only thing in his path was me, unsuspecting and way too niiave. But he took my innocence and crushed it like the eggshells i tip toed on to get to him. he took every word i spoke and twisted it. took every truth i had and bent it. any words i spoke were taken in by him chewed up and spit back in my face but with malice that they never initionally had. he took everything in me and delivered me to severence.
but he taught me things in our short time, he showed me tons. he showed me that you always have to look out for number one, and it was every man for himself. its dog eat dog, and i am nothing but a bitch. his minipulation was worthy of a pulitzer.
you played me. you may not see it through your eyes, but thats the only way i can see it. sat there and played both sides of the fence. shaped words to sound exactly as i wanted or needed them too. a master crafter saying exactly what i wanted without even saying a word at all. i was easy prey, i was a slow moving target. and i guess for your big change of life, i was the perfect first victim. i was someone who cared too much, i cared enough to both of us and therefore i fit perfectly into your plan.. you didnt have to care at all. no feelings, no emotions, no anything in return. but thats not the real you and i know that. but i stood there with that apple on my head, hoping youd hit it after missing every time before.
I should have taken notes and taken notice and taken you for what you were worth. Just a boy who needed a girl to need him. With mascara stained cheeks I fell to my knees begging you to not need me. you had taken everything and that I had. i even had a white blood cell count to prove it. But it was too late, the vampire in you had already consumed me, and I was changed.
youve been an extremely bad boy, youve been careless with a delicate girl. and its a sad day when you will break a girl just because you can. i dont know how much time has passed, but i know it feel like forever. it was only just a dream after all wasnt it? an experiment on your part. well i guess it was on both parts. you just got the conclusion you were looking for and i got tears. i got two broken friendships, days of laying in a dark room, and an ending i did not expect but should of seen coming a mile away. i mean that is the reason i didnt agree to this in the first place.
but you got me, had me, hypnotized me. got in my head and invaded like a disease. its my fault really, not yours; you warned me. but i never warned you… i fall hard. and i did. i fall fast. and i did. i have a million emotions that i just cant silience. so i paid the price and ill keep paying. doll, im still mad as hell. but, i climb slowly and eventually ill be back on top, i need to stop living my life like the next day will never come..
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