i guess i was wrong.

i blamed everything on you. the cause of all of our problems was because of you. and when that statement is correct it doesn't give the full story. i didn't know how to love you.. for you. i could never except who you were. i wanted you to be everything i needed. everything i wanted you to be. i fought with you tooth and nail to turn you into that person. how wrong was i? you are perfect as you are. and when there are no expectations to live up to.. there is no hurt. there is no pain. you are who you are. there is nothing ti can do about that and I'm learning to except that. i needed to learn that i needed to love you for who you were and not who i thought i could make you become. i needed to love you faults and all. i needed to understand that you are not perfect and neither was i. but i thought i was especially in that relationship. now its 3 years later, you are who you always were and so am i. but now the difference is.. i know how to accept it. i know how to take it for what it is.. and we get along better than we've ever gotten along before. i cant believe that i still want you and after everything we've been through. i guess we never really moved on. and as they say whats meant to be will always find its way. you fill my head with ideas of us of a future. i want so badly to believe them. your more mature and me I'm more understanding. i don't know if that means we'd work but i think its worth watching it play out. only god knows what is in the cards for us. and regardless of what hand is played i love the ideas you have for us. i love that you do and have always accepted me as i was and as i am. I'm sorry that i didn't do that for you. i promise from now on you get nothing but understanding and love. you are who you are i can not change you and truthfully i would have never wanted to.