you've disappeared and resurfaced so many times i don't know which to trust anymore. there are things i want to scream. things i don't know how to hold in. things that eat at me. but I'm supposed to be politically correct here. trying to keep my feelings bottled. trying to play the game we've caught our selves in. its a tangled web and if i unwrap myself, do i fall? Why do these games control us. I plead, I beg, I surrender! Here we think they protect us but really they ruin us. They prevent us from putting ourselves out there and reaching full potential. They hinder us from speaking the words we so desperately want to scream. They obstruct the justice that leads to all redemption. How many lives have been settled without ever knowing what could have been? I want to know what could have been! You and I, could we have been?
on the lines it all feels so safe. there's no rejection there's no pain. but in a couple months from now it all comes to light. every promise we've made. every word we've written. every thing becomes real. and maybe a little to real for me to handle. do i just sit back and watch things unfold, enjoy the ride? or do i do what i normally do? do i run and hide. hide from the pain that could be sneaking right below the surface?
don't you get it? this is all your fault, you called me beautiful. i have no options left. so there you go I'm discarding my hand. face up. for the world to see. its time for you to learn that i was never bluffing. i can play this game longer than you can, but it'd mean that id have to pretend not to care as much as i actually do. fate brought us together for a reason. I'm ready to find out what that reason is. its time for that nasty leap of faith. its time to fall off that cliff. its time for all of this to make some sort of sense.
your words are gentle, even if they're lies. your tales, enchanting. you can see right through me in a way Ive never known before. your thoughts are magnetic. your past is ignominy but it doesn't phase me one bit. i could of looked the other way but then id be missing out on something insanely special. you thought i should stop this a long time ago. truth is, i couldn't.. you had me hypnotized more than you realize. more than I'd like to admit. i couldn't resist myself. i could never control myself. i couldn't pull away not even for a second.
i want to feel your body pressed with passion against mine. your lips ever so tender in places people don't speak of. i want your eyes to look through the pain and see the beauty. your hands to tickle my skin with the slightest of touch. i want your arms to make me feel safe. and i want you to make me feel like there is nothing more in this world than that very moment.
you told me i was beautiful, but everything beautiful breaks. and i fear that nothing lasts forever. but that's what i want you to promise me, forever.
